INTO THE VOID: THE LIMINAL SPACE OF A QUEER, UNDOCUMENTED, MEXICAN
This altarpiece addresses the cultural and religious practices that have been silenced in my household the older I get. This is my attempt to retain what is left in me, an immigrant, Inglewood raised (Americanized), queer Mexican in the United States. Through this altar I was able to see the voids and the innovative space that I have entered as an individual with multifaceted identities. Through this meditation I realized "que no soy ni de aqui ni de aya" (I am neither from here or there).
Whenever I fell sick and doctors could not explain it, my grandma would roll her sleeves and lay me gentle in bed. She would rub an egg across my body until it was warm--she hovered over me. Her eyes dug for something deep within me. She was silent. This practice is called limpia con huevo para el mal de ojo--this practice is to cleanse you of maldades o malos ojos, or negativity and dark energy from others. She would then crack the egg over a clear cup, pour the yolk into it, and would watch it settle. Abuelita would then study it--she read the threads that clung from the yolk and how many air bubbles surfaced to the rim of the cup. She would whisper to the elders in the room, knew what was wrong with me, knew what remedies to make next.
This practice is not Catholic
This piece addresses the Mexican racial identity in the United States. the mexican identity is in conversation with colorism and the rigid black and white racial dichotomy that exists within the U.S. This piece encourages my audience to consider their racial position, especially in relation to skin tone/gradient. This piece also flourished in response to the heavy Black and white racial dichotomy that dominated academia in the east coast.
Mexican Lottery is a traditional family game. The cards and playing boards are rich in color and so are the iconic and dramatic images. My series of ten paintings mock this similar style but more specifically, are a visual definitive moments or objects that gave me my "bingo!" These moments are represented through paintings of objects, religious symbols, and people.
REMEMORY OF HOME| This piece accentuates the constriction and invisibility of the space my mother and I occupied in our first home after immigrating into the United States. This piece is my first attempt at bringing to life a memory that is definitive of the silent life my mother and I have lived as undocumented peoples.